Our household does not have a dual income. My husband is the provider. I stay home, making our home a safe and pleasant place. I enjoy preparing meals and tending my garden. I don’t find quite so much joy in dusting and ironing (which I rarely do).
There are moments, too, when I have some free time. I can read or sew. Recently, I’ve started doing puzzles. The current one has 500 pieces. I’m frustrated by this puzzle because its colors are only various shades of brown. I sit down to put some pieces together and walk away without finding a single match. I get tense. I think, “I can’t even put together a puzzle. How could I be expected to have a baby?” During those moments, I wonder if I should go back into the work force. Maybe I’d feel better about myself if I was “contributing to society” instead of “tending the hearth.”
Therein lies my sin. I’ve started listening to the voices of society. They say, “Get out there and do something.” That’s when it’s time to redirect my attention. It’s time to listen to the voice of Jesus, the Good Shepherd. What does He tell me in Scripture? I need to confess my sin of idolatry. The Lord will provide for the needs of my family. He has already given me His Word and Holy Sacraments. I am forgiven; I am His child.
I have no idea what God’s plan is for me regarding family life. I don’t know if my family size will grow or remain the same. I don’t know if there will ever be grandchildren. Who will care for me and my husband in our golden years?
The Lord knows. He is the One who formed me. He knew me in my mother’s womb. He knows my life’s steps. He has given me the vocations of wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend. I don’t have to worry about how to make everything fit into its proper place. God has it covered; He’s taking care of everything. No need for me to be puzzled about that.
